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Victoriana's Gardens 02/23/04 Victoriana lived for her gardens Grew things of unbelievable beauty She walked among her roses and blooms Ivy and vines so brilliant and green Kissed by the sun, glowing in the moon Day and night she touched them Sang to them, danced for them As they were absorbing her spirit Their lustiness sucking the life from her soul Creating the lonely void inside of her Yet she never knew She never left her gardens Confident that love would come her way Someday... But the garden gate had become overgrown It shut out the world she had never known No one could have found their way in So no lovers knew she was inside Waiting... Years of hope and anticipating As eventually her empty heart turned to stone Victoriana died in her gardens alone

I Have Always Tried 03/09/04 There were places that I longed to see Distant voices beckoned me I have always tried to take the road less traveled Then paved a path for my survival Still sometimes getting lost along the way I never wanted to go along with the crowd Or gave much thought to societies expectations I was usually the exception to the rule I said my prayers on mountain peaks And told my troubles to the trees I have always tried to save the sick and dying Stayed by their side when it became useless trying Then searched for answers on back country roads I have always tried to follow God's rules And kept my distance from the intentionally cruel I have always tried to go the extra mile Sometimes pushing myself beyond the brink I let go of my dreams when they were shattered Then tried to spread my broken wings and fly And have lived my life like each day mattered

Amber's Ashes 05/26/04 I held her when she cried After he left her that night Her petite body shaking like a leaf I brushed her hair from her face Dampened by her tears As the night progressed she calmed Still she stayed in my arms Quite innocently she looked into my eyes And when she kissed me I was completely surprised As we got lost in each others arms I found a love so new Wanting to help her hold on I just let it be A mystifying experience for me And when daylight came shining through I hated to let her go But she said she'd be back soon She told me that she loved me As she drove away Something inside Told me not to let her go Later that day When the phone rang I felt a chill so strong I knew before I answered That Amber was gone She did what she thought she had to do Her love had been so true Now Amber's ashes Sit on my mantle Just a reminder of a girl I knew And a memory in my mind That I will never lose

Confusion 11/14/04 Words flowed freely like velvet red wine running through my veins providing uncommon warmth and comfort now the world spins around and around dizzy from the ride I fight to understand everything...anything who am I now lost in that night a writer bound by desire, by knowledge by creative confusion so why am I confused this is what I wanted... right? delve into the unknown, all pretend never actually...love what have you done where have you taken me what is this pain...lingering as the sun faded and took with it something maybe I needed I never cry over false wounds get out of my head get out of my heart I must forever delete your memory I hate the game now but I played along I am not easy or vulnerable but the ride was cheap, so different that road left an impression as you crashed through all my barriers the stars fell all around me I danced inside of you this isn't real it is my fantasy, my game just another writer's whim yet you lingered long enough to twist my soul did you hear nothing of my words or the sincerity of my touch I am fighting endlessly to forget you as the ice between us grows why, I may never know but I just used you... right? creative writing is my only desire so leave me now please

That Train Still Runs Through My Mind 12/21/04 Remembering the place the hundreds of times the cheap thrills when we heard the train the only way was down to the icy water below no time to run no way to escape the first time was terrifying but we were kids fearless in each others eyes even if we would die we jumped as if we could fly and somehow we survived That train still runs through my mind falling to my knees covering my ears deafening thunder tearing at my memory screams ensue I cannot take back those years they are gone I always knew the limits of time lost forever yet I lived as if it all was so timeless tomorrow things would be better Tomorrow never came now all those days to get it right somehow slipped away I could never live up to their expectations let alone my own I don't want to hear anything or how I never learned or did I... maybe I just didn't care I always walked on the right side I never laid down on the tracks but I can't say I didn't think about it I'm not sure I know who I am I'm not sure I know what I want but I know I don't want this Always trying to be so perfect yet at times I was so lost no one ever knew that blonde with eyes so blue seemingly so damn perfect was not so perfect after all those trains ran through my mind so many times I walked a fine line was I self destructive or did fate always find me in my awkward silence I think I wanted love Was I too terrified someone might see inside my troubled mind how could I hide when the train ran through my mind over and over until I wanted to die maybe love would have made me mellow or turned my life around helped me find a peaceful road I will never know or will I... I don't hate the train it is a reminder of who I am and who I became I just hate the reality it should have instilled in me I always felt I was just a breath away from being crushed by its fury running just ahead of my fate if I could go back today would I lay down on the tracks throw it all away if it would all turn out the same

Vampire's Soul 01/03/05 The face of an angel A heart of gold A blue eyed blonde A near perfect mold But deep inside A demon takes hold She fights against him As her bitter life goes Issues unending The lover who left her The one she's never known The face of an angel With a vampire's soul By day she smiles Admired by many Touched by few But late at night Her lust unfolds Someday she'll find him She'll entice him with love Then she'll devour his existance Before he even knows Face of an angel With evil below

My Third Day Without You 07/08/05 I awoke early this morning with the same emptiness inside noticing my pillow was still wet from all the tears I cried somehow I found the strength to get up out of bed just to face another day brought feelings I have learned to dread I've tried so hard to keep busy knowing this is how it has to be until you come home again and I know you're safe with me I never dreamed it would be so hard to let you go away and it hurts a little more each and every day we've been through so much and braved each storm we've known together we saw it through but it's my third day without you and I feel so alone even though we've talked every day on the phone I just want you to be okay and soon to hurry home

Perspective 02/01/06 Surrounded by ignorance I despise their drama slept away by self consumption I give them little thought for I am alive and every morning I am thankful for another day so I smile and stretch it's all perspective I choose to feel great Things I lost along the way loved ones I grieve gone to the great beyond who watch over me would want to see me admiring flowers and a warm summer breeze I choose to live I choose to breathe and live my life the way I choose happiness I've found in so many ways simply because this is what I choose It's all perspective...

Madness 04/01/06 In the corner of the mindset of her quiet insanity she wove a blanket of protection from the bitter cold that lived inside her head dreams stricken from the realm of her lonely existence she drove her madness forward away from the torn woman she'd become away from a phone that never rang conveniences she left to the sane no anger lived inside her broken thoughts the only sign of her pain was the pillow of tear stained hope drying as the hours crept by consuming all the internal life inside her consistently emaciating body he nailed her spirit on a cross of death

Dying 09/30/07 It's darker than before things are fading slowly as the world spins mad, out of control so many shallow people full of selfish desires they don't know our pain we mostly ignore them our world is small, simple not as perfect as it use to be but we have each other, always so we smile and laugh we don't have to face it alone and the emptiness doesn't last for long it's hard to write this because I know one of us could go anytime but until then every breath we cherish every moment of everyday even if it's all in pain we did nothing to deserve this we ask nothing from anyone and no mercy is ever shown from anyone but no matter what in our hearts we'll always be together and we won't die alone